So…

So…

My mom has cancer.

(Insert all the expletives you know. I did.)

In the past month, I’ve done things, thought things, and said things I never imagined I would do, think, and say.

My greatest fear.
The rug pulled out from underneath us.
All those awful cliched phrases.

My mom has cancer. It’s in her pancreas. She’s doing chemo. Every other week for 3 months. Then retest everything. Then more chemo or cut it out. Hopefully that answers everyone’s questions.

Week one of chemo did a number on her. Nausea, exhaustion. I felt very helpless, but she reassures me I’m doing the right things to support her. I love her. I hug her. I make her smile. It’s all I can do. Because I can’t take the cancer away.

Round two is Monday. She admitted to dreading it, but she’s not as scared because now she knows what to expect.

She’s a fighter. She’s tough. She’s a mother runner. She’ll get through this. I know she will. She’s still got races left to run.

But it still sucks. It’s not fair. It’s stupid. Cancer is stupid.

Keep the positive thoughts, prayers, and good ju-ju headed our way.

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STREAK!

I don’t run streak. I don’t do workout streaks. I’ve said this before. I need rest days.

But look at this!!!

I’m on a streak! 14 DAYS! And it’s on purpose. And I’ve been keeping it a secret. Shhh… Oops.

For the most part, it’s been relatively easy to get to 10,000 steps each day. Mondays are challenging, because…duh…rest day. Also, surprisingly Saturdays are challenging as well. I generally do long bike rides on Saturdays, so I guess it isn’t super surprising that after spinning my legs for an hour plus on my bike that I just want to sit on my butt. Last Saturday I had to walk a mile on the treadmill to make the semi-circle green (see below). I walked REALLY slow, 2.5 mph or 24:00 pace, and played games on my phone and caught up on social media.

So question: how long do I plan to keep this up? I’m not sure. The whole month of March would be cool. You know me and goals. I’m not always the greatest at hitting them or sticking with them.

Stay neon!┬áNEON GREEN for 31 days? Maybe…